Talking me down

10 11 2016

bloggers note:

I used to call it bipolar opportunity, my current terminology is The Bipolar Illusion. Because that is what it has become for me. It is a temporary bio, physiological, spiritual, mental pattern/ coping mechanism I can drop into from time to time when triggered.

on with the blog

I stopped blogging a lot because I felt empty. I personally have moved on from being and identifying with bipolar. My life has challenges I have episodes, but they are pretty miner, boring, and feel pretty “normal”. WOW!!! congrats George. this is why I put the blogger note in. Bipolar is an illusion for me now. I’ve been on to it’s game for many years and the pay off has been excellent.

Yes I feel manic coming on, yes I feel depressions, and I feel a lot of calm functional peace.

Anyway. A new topic has gained interest for me, which perhaps I can begin blogging about, because I love to write.

How to deal with bipolar people?

Ahh, now we are on to something good deep thick and juicy. Why George why do you know so much about this topic. Uh, duh, hello life long bipolar illusionist here.

Todays topic: Talking me or someone else down.
(p.s. this can apply to anyone, not bipolar exclusive behavior)

Step One: Identify the situation. Become aware that your loved one or coworker has raised their voice or pace of words, actions, emotions, etc, beyond a functional level to the situation.

Step Two: Prep yourself. This is vital to your personal mental health!!! Don’t skip it, trust me on this one. I grew up enmeshed with crazy people, it’s no good to lose yourself in the mental illusions of another’s challenges. I don’t care how nice and empathetic you are. Prep yourself.
How? Pray-connect with whatever is positive unseen and bigger then your ego, Breathe. Scrunch and release your toes. Practice feeling the skin on the bottom of your feet and the earth below. Feel as grounded as you possibly can.

Step Three: Make a decision consciously to interact or WALK AWAY.
don’t worry there are an abundance of riled up people everyday everywhere, so no need to interact with everyone all the time. ( hello another lifelong george lesson gem here, If only i could fix everyone, I would be ok and wouldn’t feeeeeel this way)

Step Four: obsess about being calm. breathe, feel feet, let it go.
lower your voice and pace of words and energy, re-connect with spirit and trust all will be well.

Ok you are in. Now, you have created calmness, and spirit connection in the presence of a temporarily upset person dealing with the illusion of fear in some way. This is the magic. Don’t take it personally, know that you can walk away at any point, trust your intuition.

I’ve used this method thousands of times, and it’s been used on me even more. I thank my blue collar brothers for teaching me this. Let’s face it, we are rough and tumble guys that grew up in the ‘80s and went to shop class in high school, didn’t always finish high school, and ended up in industry. All was well until the human relations department showed up and started firing us because we couldn’t beat each other up to solve differences of opinion any more. So let’s just say, we’ve been through a transition, and are really good at talking each other out of beating each other up and getting fired so that we can still work and provide for our loved ones.

Step Five; At some point, when I maintain a calm, spirit connected, grounded presence, usually the other person sees that i’m not getting riled up, and begins to self regulate and calm down again. This is MAGIC! We usually become good friends as well, and often the next time, the other person is calming me down. I think it’s a modern day form of male bonding in the work place. But I use it everywhere now.

If the person doesn’t shift their own energy in a time or manner you feel comfortable, trust spirit to step in and take care of the situation. AND WALK AWAY.

ok, that’s it, enjoy, be SAFE.


Rile up, or breathe.

10 11 2016

water-dropFamiliar words. Family. Father. Work drama, ego fear mind drama. How easy it is to be riled how easy it is to rile.

I first learned it from my father. I remember observing the pattern as I got older. He stirs shit up then sucks the energy off. I started hating it. I labelled it unnecessary emotional bullshit. I was an old soul, and 9 earth years by that point, long being bitter sarcastic rebellious, angry.

What I didn’t know, was that I was learning these patterns to deal with low self esteem, physical energy, and the stress i felt from this. What I learned was that if I was ever scared, bored, low energy, feeling overwhelmed, I could just rile people up and watch the show.

What I didn’t know was these family bonds I connected with my father would not only make me easily manipulated, but also excellent at manipulating others.

Thank God it makes me feel very uncomfortable, and I’ve had a life long obsession for serenity and calmness, to create inside me and generate whenever possible around me.

Don’t get me wrong, I can go from calm to compost stirring jerk in a half second, just ask my long term coworkers and friends who really know me. What can I say, my training was excellent, and my ego loves to feel the illusion of power.

Fortunately, my soul and spirit cringe, it’s also taken many years to see these patterns in me, and begin to choose to be calm, breathe, walk away, any other means possible then to stir people up and watch the show, and listen to my ego find creative ways of justifying it.

Today I choose peace first, as much as I can, and compassion as soon as I can after an episode.


2 09 2009

“…, I use this extreme example of my demonstrated stupidity to illustrate the power of our minds.”

pg 27 of my book Living Out Of Darkness


Presence, is the biggest gift I am grateful for today from my life time engagement with bipolar.  I didn’t shoot out of the starting blocks with bipolar and being present.  I started out anything but present.  I was actually a poster child for ADD, multimess(my word for multitasking), etc.  Often highly distracted, easily irritated, arrogant and annoyed, all qualities I am comfortable with in my repertories and able to pull up at any time, as my ego sees fit.

But the hunger for connection with people developed into a quest, which led me to the discovery of metaphysics.  Along the way I was able to discover that not all people experienced a bipolar life.  Ok this may sound strange, let me illustrate this a bit.  Being bipolar all my life, my frame of reference was that everyone must be “high” one second, and down in the dumps the next, either on a moment by moment, daily, monthly cycle.  I had no idea, I was the one on the wild rollercoaster ride floating through a group of people that in comparison were relatively “stable”, or that drastic word, “normal”.  I still haven’t discovered a normal person yet, but I will use it as a comparison in contrast to the raw bipolar experience.

This discovery that I experienced incredible highs, and incredible lows, and that not everyone experienced life like this was very freeing.  In metaphysics, new age, human potential, etc workshops I figured out that one of the holy grails of spiritual journey, those moments of sheer emersion with spirit was a regular visit for me, got me to pondering.  I also discovered what people refer to as an occasional life transformation dark night of the soul, which I visited on a regular basis.  What I put together was, naturally I was experiencing, the holy grail of spiritual guest-being connected with spirit, and the life altering dark night of soul.

Transformation is the key word here.  By now I had been diagnosed with bipolar, and had run across the clinical definition of bipolar.  My transformation shifted when I altered my definition for manic, to that of a visionary and connected state when I saw all possibilities.  I altered my definition for low or drepressed state to dark night of the soul/life lesson/soul retrieval experience.  The key for success in being high was to stay grounded enough to not cause damage to my life or others, and to some how tangibly capture a glimpse of the experience such as a photo, drawing or writing.  In my low states I gathered all the spiritual tools I was learning such as meditation to seek out the gold somewhere in the dark cave my soul was lost in.

Over the years, with patience, I’ve cultivated from my highs and lows in this way.  The result has been a presence, which I am deeply grateful for.  All my crazy adventures in life have connected me with many walks of life/places/and people in the physical world.  All my journeys inside have given me a huge capacity for compassion; because of my failures, my walks in dark paths, and success I have gained from bringing visions to life.

So today, I am hugely grateful for Bipolar being my motivation to be present in my dance with life.

Thank you spirit for this day and all it’s gifts.


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