Endings Anew

6 03 2014

Image“A bipolar person is going to feel IT.  What ever IT is, it is not an option.  You are going to feel it, whether it is the universal pain of ___…or the first flower in spring.”

pg 80 Living Out of Darkness.

Goodbye, Hello.  Mixed feelings, life moves in.  Soulsphere this week time off deeper stirrings leading inward.  A part of the renewing life process for me is active letting go.  I”m hearing/feeling the first thunderstorms of spring, listening for the rain, watching the drop splashes on my patio.  Drifting thru what it is I am ready to not worry about any longer.

Let’s face it, we all…I, worry about things, uselessly, alot.  As I confront doubt and lack of faith for creative projects, forensic residual worries surface.

Very little in my past has escaped without fingernail grooves, etched in worry, and yet very little of my creative successes occurred with out the energy boost from finally letting go or life resolving ending/ issues.

Endings are important.  They fuel new.

Feeling an ending, is tough, yet can help smooth the bipolar/disorder ride.  When I ignore “ending intuition”, the big shifts are uglier when they hit.

When I allow intuitive preemptive grief to occur, it’s easier, a little, to feel real time when events occur.

Not all intuitions/perceptions prove true, yet when I allow time to sift sort journal thru them, they often prepare me if when they do occur.

Being intuitive, extremely sensitive, with a zillion antennas, it’s a bit freaky at times.  It’s been a long delicate journey learning/allowing/honoring, that which is not seen, but felt.



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