Deep Journeys

13 04 2012

I feel.

Deeply.

When there is a disturbance in the bottom of my ocean which authentically rises to the now, I allow.

“oh no that’s bad you’ll feel uncomfortable and dark and be difficult to be around and I can’t fix you and you can’t fix or distract me,”

“come back,   come back, be in the light.”

I feel,

deeply,

I explore.

Recently completed a journey, emptying out past illusions feeling current rift and crack in my illusion of security.

It took time, patience lots of it.  I didn’t understand it, have words, non verbal.  Deep, deep work.

I’m back in world of clock and work, obligations, I’ve honored the deep waters of soul and now must plunge into the daily reality of providing food shelter and water for the body temple.

This is life.

Some of us dive deep with no explanation even we can provide.

Here’s the good.

Wow, I felt agony.  Tears, etc.

I allowed enough time and space to uncompress solidified energy that had no words to come out and breathe in the sunshine.

I discovered again the gentle pace of soul, not the artificial pace of current culture.

Back in the world I wonder did I do any good allowing the time to breathe and feel the agony which chose to surface during my quiet time.

Unequivocally yes.  I feel a pressure inside me where a vacuum once existed.  I wouldn’t call it a positive pressure, but there is something now that I can relate to in a space deep inside I once abandoned unfelt pain.

I don’t know why I know this.  I just know I’m deeper, quieter, less fearful of being sucked into the black hole of disconnection.

I’ve also observed in the presence of anxious weary travelers, I feel less tension.  In the presence of antagonistic manipulating coworkers, I feel less triggered.

Operational theory:

By allowing my organic process to feel that which is real when I can, at a gentle a pace as possible, I fear less inside which I avoid, and less attraction or irritation to that which shows up in my immediate area.

Deep feelings,

they are not just for movies,

investigate your soul with gentle silence,

please…

George


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18 04 2012
Sea Goddess

Wow,
Thank you George for sharing your process. You have a gift of verbalizing the places I soul travel in my own solitude. I have found gifts of grace in caves of darkness.

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