Wisdom Timing…

21 10 2009

Something has been going exceptionally well lately and I’m trying to figure out what.  If I were to add up the amount of time I’ve spent in light verses dark thoughts lately I would have to admit the scale has significantly tipped more to the light.

Insights.  I finally heard, not to fight other peoples energy’s or shield yourself, but rather to be in my own center.  All I have to do is re-member my center, and send away anyone eles’s energy, this sounds so simple have heard it a thousand times but this time something shifted inside can’t describe it very well.  I’ve always been so aware of energy around me inside me etc.  Only in my early twenties did I discover other people and books that discussed energy openly.  For years I’ve tried shielding, engaging, letting go, you name it. Part of it has been feeling response-able to see, therefore deal with negative energies, the net result being hugely draining at times, yet thinking I’m doing some good along the way.  But recently I just ask, is this my energy or someone else’s, and any other then mine goes away.

If you are now officially convinced I’m crazy, that’s ok.  The more I acknowledge my internal experience for what it currently is, the less crazy I feel, and more better able to be in tune with what is happening rather then squeeze myself into something I’m not intended for.  I was able to write this out really well in my book, I don’t have a copy with me, I will post the page number as a comment here next time I blog.

Also I heard the lesson finally of letting it be easy.  This time it came through in the form of Easy and brilliance.  I got it, it sunk in, it found a landing place in my brain and I think it’s locking in as a new protocol routine to follow.

I used to carry around a backpack full of books and be up on all the flavor of the month healing modalities.  I had bookmarks in every book I intended to finish and could join most conversations about have you heard about…in regards to new age healing methods.

Then one day I discovered how in my head I was and out of the present.  My mom gave me a magnet for my locker at work that said there is a present in the present, when I am present. (My mom was my first “spiritual” (Sunday) school teacher, and philosopher buddy)

So I picked one or two books to study at a time, stopped going to all the latest…, and started breathing more.

This is what leads me to believe, the more comfortable I am in my own skin, as I am, right here, right now.  Worts, moods, light, dark, grumpy sad happy.  The more I let me be me.  The more present I am with now.  The more present I am the better I am at hearing what it is I really need to be, do, say, not say.

I’m discovering the added benefit is I have more landing room inside me for wisdom when I am ready for it, and better able to hear it when it comes.

If the results are deeper and deeper peace, then I am hugely grateful in this moment.

Dang I like this lots, like boxes of chocolate ,cept when I chew them they bring me peace.

I may have access to all the knowledge and the latest healing modalities available, but do I have access to the wisdom inherent in me and my soul exactly as I am?  Am I able to freely express what I see, and feel, and therefore create peace internally?

I used to be so desparate to fix myself, I lost touch with the parts of me which were already perfect and always will be.

Now that I don’t feel as desperate anymore, I get to enjoy what is going well with me, and I am better able to filter out what I’m ready to embrace as the next gentle step releasing that which is not true about my current perception/experience of life.

Wisdom Timing-if the wisdom train stops at my station will I be present to receive the gifts, or busy looking at the schedule for all trains of thought coming next?”

George


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23 10 2009
Layla

If you are now officially convinced I’m crazy, that’s ok. The more I acknowledge my internal experience for what it currently is, the less crazy I feel” – Amen to that.

“I may have access to all the knowledge and the latest healing modalities available, but do I have access to the wisdom inherent in me and my soul exactly as I am?” – And that.

Oh, and this: “Wisdom-timing-if the wisdom train stops at my station will I be present to receive the gifts, or busy looking at the schedule for all trains of thought coming next?” – this could be a good entry for your quotes, I think.

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