a Monday Happy

31 08 2009

Why are you so happy George?  What could possibly be so good about a Monday morning?  I’m ecstatic, calmly mellowly, ecstatic.  I got up and did my daily routine, “Hey guess what I’m bipolar, so what look at all the good things I can do right now to go in a positive direction today”  pg 96 Living Out Of Darkness.

Today I wave my magic wand and wish everyone that wanted to experience a positive moment in bipolar to enjoy this peaceful bliss, unrelated to any events around me.  Because our interior events can be so contrary to exterior events, over time it can become a freedom.  Much stigmatism and media drama is attached to negative blow outs of bipolar people.  This is unfortunate because there are numerous other moments, people, experiences in/with bipolar that are pleasant, functional, and actually quite useful and productive.  Because I tackled my distractions, moodiness and negative trend that I was on last week, I’m currently on a gradual up swing.  I’m not running around naked or dancing in the fountains(ok once when I was in college, self-medication may have been a contributing factor), I am pleasantly enjoying a day.

It just happens to be Monday.  So What.  I got up, I did my daily routine, and there was no backlog of unresolved issues from yesterday to deal with.  So the positive energy and connection with spirit I generated this morning carried through in my first interactions with people today.  The weather is horrid, yet I’m sunny inside.  I’ve found this to be true many times.  My interior attitude can often be opposite of apparent circumstances.  I’ve been happy when I’m broke and sad when I’m rich and it’s sunny.

If I chose to be positive, it is easy to nudge myself in this direction, over time, over years, with patience, my muscles to be happy have strengthened.  When I’m done with being negative, unhappy, stressed, avoiding life(Which I’m excellent at by the way), then I can move on gently quietly and happily.  No big news flash, just quietly enjoying the deep calm which is available at times with bipolar today.

Happy Hugs

George

http://www.livingoutofdarkness.com


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1 09 2009
Layla

Thank you for this. I was looking for a good quote in this to comment on/with and found myself wanting to copy-paste more than half of it. A few of the things I really enjoyed:

“Because our interior events can be so contrary to exterior events, over time it can become a freedom…The weather is horrid, yet I’m sunny inside.” – Yes, this is the truth of emotions, no. It’s the inside that matters. The inner climate, no?

“It just happens to be Monday. So What.” – Hehe. Indeed. Who says monday’s not as deserving of joy as any other day, right?

“I got up, I did my daily routine, and there was no backlog of unresolved issues from yesterday to deal with.” – yes! I’ve found a regular journaling practice (I like to do dream journal and day journal) rocks in this way.

“over time, over years, with patience, my muscles to be happy have strengthened. When I’m done with being negative, unhappy, stressed, avoiding life(Which I’m excellent at by the way), then I can move on gently quietly and happily.” – very cool skill to share with others. love that feeling of just being “over” the negativity, and letting it go

p.s. I’m all for “running around naked or dancing in the fountains” at any time.

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